Learning to slow down
Trying to practice what I preach
As much as I’d like to deny it, I am clinging to my output and general productivity like a badge of honor. Look at how much I can do! I am juggling all of these things, and it’s a lot! But all of the balls are staying in the air, I’m doing it!
Except, not really. The gusto behind half the things is just not there.
I’ve had some personal things percolating under the surface that are weighing on me physically, emotionally, mentally, and finally, that weighty force has made itself unavoidably known. I am crashing and need to rest. Like, actual sleep is what I need right now, and I can’t get enough of it if I’m doing all these other things half-heartedly.
You know the saying, “If you don’t take a break, your body will take one for you”? Well, here we are.
So, I’m trying. I’ve done my best to lean into early bedtimes, more reading, slow walks. I’m giving my lower energy to what really matters right now. High on my priority list are my personal health and spending time with my family. And honestly, there’s not a lot of juice left to squeeze for all the rest.
And that’s ok (she tries to convince herself)! I know (in theory) that this is a season, nothing lasts forever.
But it’s hard. I feel antsy, and I’m missing the things I’ve cut from my days.
This is a season, and it will pass. Nothing lasts forever.
How are you managing competing priorities right now? What are you giving your energy to? Do you also struggle to rest? Please tell me I’m not alone 💚