"I’m reparenting myself while learning how to parent." Yes. This.
For me, the fear in the breaks is not knowing if the old me is just paused for a moment or if she is dead and gone. There is fear that if I stop I'll never pick up the old pieces of myself again. And, since I don't know who I am without those identities, its a pretty big, scary void to look out into while I wait.
"I’m reparenting myself while learning how to parent." Yes. This.
For me, the fear in the breaks is not knowing if the old me is just paused for a moment or if she is dead and gone. There is fear that if I stop I'll never pick up the old pieces of myself again. And, since I don't know who I am without those identities, its a pretty big, scary void to look out into while I wait.
It is hard and scary and also exciting! Because what about all the new pieces you’ve added to the picture!?